Sunday, May 08, 2005
 its a funny thing, trust.
it could be that its something that you will never come understand, this thing, trust.
a thing so frail and fragile, but upon which the weight of the world was built.
if you give me yours, ill give you mine. but its not like a dollar bill and a bag of weed, this thing, trust.
you always have to lose it first.
but you have to have it to get it back.
because you might or you might not. not now not soon not ever.
and so it is. just like you said it would be.
scary to think about, this thing, trust.
there might not be enough to go around. a little some for you, a bit for you, oops! sorry not enough left. youll have to manage without any.
of this thing, trust.
paris seems to scheme her way into my thoughts more and more. sometimes in the mornings i wake up and her face pops up in a little bubble next to me on my pillow. a quick swat away and i try to go back to sleep but mr Sunshine, the biggest asshole in the world, comes creeping through the windown and through the blinds like he always does. when its 2pm and im in bed, its lecture time.
wake up jackass
no, i dont want to see paris
you should have read the stains, i mean writing, on the wall under the overpass.
i said i dont want to see her
too bad, fucker, you gotta face your fears sooner or later
he gives me a good shake and i take a mean swing at him. a big right hook, catches him right on the corner of the jaw. he slaps me back. we all fall down.
 she doesnt want you
then why does she keep calling me
she doesnt miss you
she shouldnt, im not dead yet
she fucks your friend
ive fucked hers too
she never wanted you
i dont blame her
you wont ever be able to trust her
dramatic pause
how could you ever be able to trust her? after all this bullshit. sneaking around, fucking you off, rubbing him in your face. all of this.
looks away
you couldnt have anything with her, not without trust. you gave her yours a long time ago, and she went and lost it. what does that say?
mr Sunshine, youre the worst thing that ever happened to me.
thats great. what about the trust?
well, i said. you have to understand.
its a funny thing, trust.
posted by accident at 9:44:00 PM +
 
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